Let me start off by saying that I have no real ability to describe the difference in the different dimensions/frequencies/levels of consciousness. At least, no words that would be of my own. All I know is that I travel through various levels at various times.
3D is my least favorite.
3D is considered the "what you see is what you get" level. Like, if you're not a spiritualist and think this life is it, you stay at 3D most often in life. And, for some people, that's fine. People are comfortable there and even have happy and fulfilling lives. And, until I started this journey, I lived most of my life there. But I lived in a state of sadness and depression. Everything felt heavier. Even the smallest thing could cause me to sob at any given moment. So, finding the belief that there was so much more to existence became a lifeline for me.
Now, yesterday...yesterday sucked.
I could just feel the weight of being at a lower frequency than my normal baseline of now. I tried getting out of the funk, but the more I tried the harder it felt.
I was stuck in 3D
And that happens sometimes. Sometimes there are just days that are going to be a challenge. And you won't always pass the challenge. Yesterday was one of those days for me. I cried for such little things. Things that on most days don't even make a blip on my radar. My breath felt heavy. My desire felt squashed. My whole body felt like it was holding up a boulder. With each attempt with my tools I've learned on my journey to get me back to base, I felt worse. By the evening, when I admitted that it was a bad mental health day to my husband, I sobbed. I couldn't do anything else. I needed the release. I needed to say the negative things out loud so I could hear them and know they weren't true. I went to bed thinking I had let him down somehow.
And today? Today the feeling is still kind of here. But I'm working on it, and it is helping. I woke up with gratitude. I did a mini session with my instruments. I'm flooding my senses with music that are on healing frequencies. Even though the cloud isn't totally past, I can see the rays of light breaking through.
Why do I tell you this?
Because it's a reminder. Spirituality isn't all rainbows and sunshine. Your problems of the "old/asleep" you don't just go away because you learn to meditate or use crystals in your daily life. We are spiritual beings having a human experience...but we are still, in this present, human. And humans have a huge range of emotions and feelings. And the lesson here, dear friend, is to allow yourself to be in the human experience when it calls upon you. If I would have forced myself to "get over it" or ignore it, it would have been worse. I've caused days of grief and struggle doing that to myself in the past.
I made it through the rough day. I loved myself through the heaviness that carried into this morning. I continued to use my tools to love myself through. I find comfort in the fact that this sensation is SO much fewer and farther in between than it once was.
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